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Okay so

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Before I forget (and the kickstarter runs out), throw your monies at Oddwarg pls:

kickstarter.com/projects/19334…

I'll get back to y'all's messages soon. Maybe.

:heart:

actually i think I'll freak out and sob in the corner some more about my friend being kicked out of her house
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I am journal

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I am good journal. I hide bad journal from good eyes.
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Some days I feel like I can trust no one. like they'll all betray me or hurt me in the end. I don't want to feel this way, but i can't stop these feelings. I just keep hardening my heart and ripping out little chunks every so often, hoping eventually nothing will be left to deal with.
It just feels like no one understands, and that they're all hiding things from me, even if they do understand. Maybe I am just fucked in the head. i mean just earlier, talking to two of my closest friends, I felt isolated from them, excluded, misled...and the first thing that happened...i had these thoughts and desires...a double-edged serrated blade and just slitting everyone's throats so i could start anew, with no one to trust and be hurt. then i just sat here shaking, trying not to cry. what the fuck is wrong with me...i'd snap my neck or slit my own throat if i could, but there are people i can't abandon...besides, they'd probably go to hell to drag me back out and it would just be pointless anyway. fuck you, sandi, you crazy bitch.

p.s. i really miss some of y'all. maybe you know who you are even if you hate me and want me to slowly die and rot. love you too <3

p.s. 2
yeah, i should go to a therapist, shouldn't i? maybe if this place weren't fucked and made you pay for everything yourself so you have to choose between having the money to eat and live or having proper health. and maybe also if a therapist would actually listen to me instead of acting like i'm just a stupid shit who knows nothing. "lol good joke moron. why don't you go and tell your shit to some idiot who cares."

tl;dr i hate everyone and i want to trust them but i can't and i get desires to murder everyone. so basically fucked in the head.

I love how this all comes out sounding like weak sauce when i try to write it out. such is the way of expressing thoughts and emotions...a lot of it gets diluted in the process.
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All the world's a "fuck you" and all the people merely obstacles. And if you look hard enough, you'll see 'fuck you' written on everything. Fuck you too, world.

#sanditheangstlord
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I thought I would help and get the word out, since there's not much else I can do at the moment:
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Also cross-posted here:
www.furaffinity.net/user/petra…
inkbunny.net/journalview.php?i…

Btw dA removed the mood portion from journals.

Anyway, back to being dead. Don't miss me.
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